Monthly Archives: July 2023

The Measly Jar of Motivation – Seasons Move On (poem)

When she opened her eyes,

The seasons had moved on…

Time hadn’t stood still.

The heat was gone from the sun.

There was a chill in the air.

It was time to move on.

Time to seek freedom.

The world still weighted heavily on her.

As she walked the load lightened.

She began to breathe again,

Taking deeper and deeper breaths.

Feeling the sun on her back,

She savoured the taste of autumn.

Turning to face the October sun,

She smiled and walked on

Leaving the shadows to fall behind.

I AM…. (poetry blog)

I am tired of feeling sad.

I am tired of feeling low.

I am tired of feeling broken.

I am tired of feeling useless.

I am tired of feeling lost.

I am tired of feeling anxious.

I am tired of feeling worried.

I am tired of feeling scared.

I am tired of feeling fear.

I am tired of feeling the need to be strong.

I am tired of feeling.

I am tired.

I am….

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Once Upon A Time (adult fiction)

In the wee small hours of the morning, Anna sat at her desk, her writing in full flow. The desk in front of her was littered with post it notes with phrases, names and key parts of the storyline scribbled on them. Earlier in the evening, she had reached the part of the tale where her male and female protagonists kissed for the first time. Caught up in the moment, the scene she initially envisaged spiralled and her “chaste kiss” became more passionate and as she wrote had evolved into something way sexier than she had first intended… but it worked, her characters were having fun, so she went with it.

Her male lead had given the female lead a ride home after her car had broken down…corny but true. In fact, her own car had broken down on the way home from work that afternoon and as she had walked the three miles home, she had dreamt of a “knight in shining armour” rocking up to give her a lift.

The tale emerging in front of her had seen her female lead invite her “knight in shining armour” in for coffee. They’d shared that first not so chaste kiss in the kitchen.

A noise from the kitchen behind her startled her back to reality. It sounded like footsteps. It also sounded like someone was making a pot of coffee, but she was home alone…

Quietly, Anna got up from her desk and tip toed across to the door which stood slightly ajar. As she peeked through the narrow gap, she caught sight of a man in her kitchen. She paused, a scream half-formed on her lips. He looked familiar. Long sun-bleached blonde hair caught back in a ponytail. Skinny black jeans. Black boots worn down at the heel. Slim fitting black V-neck tee. Tattoos visible from under the short sleeves.

She sniffed the air as a whiff of aftershave teased her sense of smell.

With a glance back at her notebook, Anna shook her head. She had to be hallucinating. The man making coffee in her kitchen matched the description of her male lead to perfection. Even the aftershave was the same scent.

Deciding that logically this couldn’t be real, she opened the door and walked through to the kitchen. At the sound of her feet on the tiled floor, he turned to smile at her. Oh, it was that dazzling smile she had written about a few hours earlier when he had stopped to rescue her female character.

“Hey,” he greeted her casually. “Where do you keep the coffee mugs?”

“Top cupboard on the left of the sink,” she heard herself reply as she took two small steps towards him.

“Black? Right?” he checked as he set two mugs down on the countertop.

“Milk and two for you?” she replied.

“Spot on.”

“I’ll get the milk,” she offered, reaching for the fridge door handle.

As she gazed into its brightly lit depths, Anna’s heart was pounding. Whatever was going on here, he was hot! That smile! Those eyes!

Lifting the carton of milk from its place on the door, she took a deep breath to steady her nerves then closed the door over. With trembling hands, she took the milk over to where he stood beside the two mugs of coffee.

“Which one’s yours?” she asked, unscrewing the lid.

“One on the right,” he replied as he spooned in some sugar.

As she stepped in to pour the milk, she felt his hand on the small of her back. Little ripples of excitement scooted up her spine at his touch. Setting the carton of milk down, she turned to face him. Their eyes met as he reached his hand out to tip her face up towards his. As their lips met, he drew her close, their kiss deepening with unspoken desire. Her hands were running up and down his back as she relished the taste of him. When she felt his hand move to caress her breast, she sighed.

“I want to make love to you, Anna,” he declared between kisses. “Right here. Right now.”

“Not here,” she whispered.

“Where then?”

“Family room,” she suggested. “Through here.”

Taking his hand, she led him into the adjacent family room. A small table lamp was still lit and offered enough light to create a more intimate atmosphere. Without a word, he scooped her into his arms and gently laid her down on the couch. Straddling her, he began to unbutton her blouse, exposing the swell of her ample breasts. He ran his tongue over their curves while his fingers continued to deal with the remaining buttons. Not wanting to be the only one undressed, Anna tugged his t-shirt from the waistband of his jeans before reaching up under the soft cotton, feeling his skin smooth and warm under her cool fingers.

Within moments their clothes lay discarded on the rug. Naked, they explored each other’s body with a combination of gentle caresses and soft tender kisses. Anna ran her finger over the reddish birthmark on his hip. He traced his fingertip around her areola before biting each nipple sharply. She gasped at the thrill of the bites. He slid his hand up between her thighs, his thumb instinctively finding her sensitive nub. A small groan of ecstasy escaped from her as sparks of electricity fired through her at his every touch. Reaching down, her hand found his hard length. As she wrapped her fingers around him, it was his turn to let out a small growl of pleasure. Slowly, she massaged his erection while his fingers explored her wet feminine folds.

“I’m going to make love to you,” he said, his voice warm and husky. “I need to feel you around me.”

Parting her thighs, he entered her with one confident thrust. Her hips bucked in response. Still kissing her neck, he began to stroke her slowly, languidly, teasing her towards orgasm.

“Harder,” she breather as their bodies moved together as one. “Deeper.”

“As you desire,” he said, thrusting hard and fast.

Her orgasm shattered around him a split second before his own hot creamy load filled her in a few frantic thrusts.

“Mark,” she purred as she felt herself sink back into the soft cushions of the couch.

“Sh, Anna,” he said, putting his finger to her lips. “That was…”

“Perfect,” she finished for him.

Again, she was rewarded with one of his dazzling smiles.

Gently, he eased out of her then he spooned around her, cupping her exposed breast with one hand. Stirring purring with contentment, Anna savoured the warmth of his slender muscular body around her.

She felt her eyelids grow heavy…

A sudden chill wakened her minute…hours…later.

He was gone.

Gathering her discarded clothing into her arms, Anna wandered back through the kitchen, barely noticing the two mugs of cold coffee sitting forgotten on the counter. Her mind was focused on one thing. She needed to keep writing until she wrote Mark back out of the story…

Cinnamon Girl (short story)

Being back in the small fishing town after eighteen years felt surreal to Freya as she walked down through the narrow winding streets towards the harbour. In her jeans pocket, her hand was wrapped around a set of keys. The keys to her new shop. Everyone had told her she was insane to open her dream business in such a small tourist orientated location but something deep inside her told her that the location was perfect and that this was exactly where she was meant to be.

The place had captured her heart when she had spent the summer there. It had been her first experience of living and working away from home and had set her on the path to follow her dreams. That summer, she had worked in the town’s only hotel as a receptionist. Home for the summer season had been a tiny sweltering caravan at the campsite on the edge of town. It had been a long hot summer; it had been almost the perfect summer.

As she drew closer to the harbour front, the street grew busier with tourists meandering through town, browsing in the shop windows. “Busy’s good,” she thought as she reached the door to her own shop. It was located on the corner of the main thoroughfare with an oblique view of the harbour. Despite its prime spot, the shop had lain empty for several years. The estate agent had explained that it used to be a book shop and when the owner died, there had been a lengthy dispute over settling the estate. With the legalities agreed in the background, the shop had been put on the market. Immediately she saw the sale notice ping into her emails, Freya knew this was the place she had been searching for. Decision made, she had sealed the deal within days then spent another few weeks negotiating to buy a small cottage on the outskirts of town.

A glance at her phone told her she still had about an hour before she was due to meet the joiner who was going to re-fit the shop for her. “Time for a coffee,” she thought with a smile to herself. Coffee was something else she associated with that summer from the past.

When she had stayed in town before, Freya had fallen into the habit of walking to work via a small coffee shop hidden in one of the myriad of tiny side streets. The barista was a summer worker just like herself and he quickly sussed out her routine. By the time summer was drawing to a close, he knew it so well that her morning coffee was just being placed on the counter ready for her as she walked in the door. They’d flirted outrageously with each other but both were working long shifts with little free time. They did eventually manage one memorable date shortly before they both left to resume university life at opposite ends of the country.

She smiled at the memory as she set off to see if the coffee shop was still there.

It was! And it was exactly as she remembered it. The delicious aroma of freshly brewed coffee mixed with freshly baked pastries brought back sweet memories. Behind the counter, a tall dark-haired barista was busily wiping down the coffee machine after the last order. His long hair was pulled up into a man bun, but a couple of tendrils had escaped and were curling down at the name of his neck.

“Good morning,” he greeted her as he turned round to take her order.

“Morning,” said Freya politely. “Large cappuccino with cinnamon not chocolate and an extra shot.” She paused, “Oh, and I’ll have a cinnamon apple Danish too please.”

“Sit in or take away?”

“Sit in, please.”

Their eyes met as she paid for her order, a spark of familiarity instantly re-igniting deep inside her.

“Grab a seat and I’ll bring it over.”

“Thanks,” she said, fumbling to put her change in her purse.

Stumbling into an empty table en route, Freya scurried across to the empty corner table by the window. It was him! How? Why? He hadn’t even been from here so why was he back? A voice in her head whispered, “Why not? You’re back, aren’t you?”

In an effort to calm her nerves, Freya pulled her project book out of her canvas tote and tried to focus on the list of things she needed to speak to the shopfitter about in order to ensure the place was ready for her grand opening in two weeks’ time. Turning to the next section where she’d noted down all the colour options for the interior décor, Freya caught sight of the small, frayed napkin tucked into the plastic envelope section of the section divider. She fingered the delicate edge of it as memories flooded through her.

He’d written his phone number on it and passed it to her with her coffee the last day that she had come into the shop on her way for her final shift at the hotel. She’d never called the number. Coffee had dripped onto the napkin by the time she reached work, smudging the ink and rendering the two middle numbers illegible but she’d kept it. That tiny napkin had been her only link to him for all those years….

Sensing him approaching with her order, she turned the page over so that by the time he reached the table, all that was visible was various paint colour sample cards that she had pasted into the notebook.

“I like the bottom one,” he commented as he sat the mug down, followed by a white plate with her Danish pastry on it. Next, he placed a small square napkin down with several sachets of brown sugar and a wooden stirrer on top.

“Me too,” she said, struggling to keep her voice even.

“Would look great as a feature wall,” he continued casually.

Gazing at the teal green square of colour, Freya heard herself saying, “I’m thinking of painting the whole shop that colour.”

“Shop?” he quizzed. “Hey, are you the new owner of the old book shop? I heard it was due to re-open but no one in town seems to know much. It’s been quite the local mystery this week.”

There was no backing out now. Taking a deep breath, Freya revealed, “I’m opening in two weeks hopefully. Tattoo parlour.”

“Tattoo parlour? It’ll be the only one for miles. You could be onto a winner there.”

“I hope so,” she said, looking up into his dark brown eyes for the first time in eighteen years.

“Enjoy your coffee,” he said as he turned to walk back to the counter to serve his next customer.

Had he recognised her? Had she got away with this? It had been eighteen years so why would he remember her?

She lifted two of the long skinny sugar sachets and the stirrer. Something caught her eye. There was writing on the napkin. Pushing the remaining sugar sachets aside, she revealed the whole message. “Call me, Cinnamon Girl followed by a mobile number. Been a long time.”

Cinnamon Girl….his old nickname for her from all those years ago.

Not taking any chances this time, Freya tucked the napkin into the project book. She felt something inside her shift. A calm feeling washed through her. Her heart lightened. Suddenly she knew this was all going to work out ok. They had a lot of catching up to do.

As she took her first bite of her Danish, her phone buzzed. It was a What’s App message. “Hi Mum. Will be down on Saturday. See you about 4.”

Yes… there was a lot of catching up to be done…

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Less than an hour later, the burgers were sizzling on the grill, Maddy and Lori were bringing salads and relishes out from the kitchen, Becky was contentedly watching TV and the four band members were all catching up with each other, as they sprawled across the sun deck. Rich had taken charge of the BBQ, ordering Jake to stay clear of the smoke. Happy to relinquish the cooking duties, Jake had gone back to the sun lounger without a word of complaint. Once all the food was out, Lori came and sat beside him. He draped a protective arm around her shoulders, kissed the top of her head and whispered, “Love you, li’l lady.”

“Love you too, rock star,” she purred, resting her head against his bare chest.

Within a few minutes, Rich was dishing up burgers and they were all scrabbling round the table for rolls, salad and relish. No one was standing on ceremony and the relaxed atmosphere gave it the feel of a family meal.

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