Silently Watching Under A Blooming Moon

Balancing Luna on his shoulders, Jem meandered carefully through the trees in the forest to the southwest if the beach hut. At two years of age, Luna was developing a curious personality, asking him about the trees and plants that they passed.

“You’ll need to ask Mamm Wynn about those,” he said, inwardly cursing himself for his lack of botanical knowledge.

“Anna know.”

The very mention of the dark angel’s name sent a chill rattling down his spine.

“Anna’s not here,” he replied through gritted teeth.

“Miss Anna. You put Anna in a box She got out.”

Another icy chill fired through him.

“Where is she?” he asked trying to make the question appear casual.

“With the crows.”

“Which crows?”

“Tas Gwynn crows.”

Jem’s blood ran cold…

With all that had been going on in life since the family’s return from the castle, Jem had had little time to think about the dark angel. As he walked through the forest with Luna, he cursed himself for being so complacent.

“Time to go home,” he declared, swinging the little girl down into his arms. “Maybe Beth will read you a story before bedtime.”

“I like Beth. She got pretty wings,” said Luna. “Will me get wings?”

“When you’re older,” replied Jem, cursing another question that he didn’t know the answer to. “Hold on tight.”

Once back at the beach hut, Jem handed Luna straight to Trine then turned to his mother and said simply, “We need to talk.”

Sensing from her son’s mood that he meant immediately, Meryn got to her feet and suggested that they took their conversation outside.

Together they walked along the shoreline, heading west away from the hut.

“Jem, what’s wrong?” Meryn asked eventually, “You look angry.”

“Anna isn’t in the box.”

Meryn stopped and stared at him in disbelief. “Not in the box?”

Jem shook his head,” Apparently Luna has known all along that I took her doll. She said Anna wasn’t in the box. She says she’s with the crows at the castle.”

Meryn paled visibly, “We need to go back. Now!”

“What about Beth? I can’t leave her here. She’s not able to hunt for herself yet,” pointed out Jem.

“We’ll have to take her with us.”

“Is she strong enough to travel?”

“That remains to be seen,” sighed Meryn. “She is getting stronger by the day. Her wings are fully formed now. I agree that she’s not strong enough to learn to hunt yet so perhaps castle life is actually the obvious answer for a while.”

“It’s not the answer for me,” he grumbled. “If we go now, I’ll end up trapped there for months. I wanted to spend the summer her with Trine and my daughters.”

“Well, you can’t,” snapped Meryn. “We need to go back and you know it. We need to find Anna before she wreaks havoc.”

“I know,” Jem sighed. “But I am not staying there any longer than I absolutely have to, mother!”

“Understood.”

The heavy curtain that served as a door to Beth’s small room was closed. Not wanting to barge in uninvited, Jem knocked on the wall beside the curtain.

“Beth?” he called softly. “Can I come in?”

“Of course.”

Pushing the curtain aside, Jem stepped into the room. His daughter was sitting up in bed reading.

“You’re a bit old for fairy tales,” he teased with a smile.

“You’re never too old for fairy tales,” she countered. “Feels as if we’re living in one half the time these days.”

“I hear you,” Jem acknowledged as he took a seat on the edge of the bed. “We need to talk.”

“Sounds ominous. Should I be worried?”

“Not at all,” he assured her. “Jesus, this really does sound like a fairy tale.” He paused. “We need to return to the castle for a bit. There’s something Meryn and I need to deal with.”

“The vampires’ castle?”

“Yes but its not as bad as you’re imagining,” replied Jem. “Actually, I think you might enjoy it. Staff to wait on you hand and foot. Ramparts to walk along. And you’ll finally get to meet Trine’s father, Stefan.”

“He’s the head vampire, isn’t he?”

Jem nodded.

“Are we all going?” Beth asked anxiously..

“Yes,” Jem replied. “We’re still working out the logistics but we’ll likely leave tomorrow night or the night after. It’s not easy to transport everyone so Meryn is sending for an escort for us.”

“Escort?”

“Someone from the Court of Elders will arrive to help everyone safely to the castle. Michael most likely. He’s American. You’ll like him. Nice guy.”

“Do they all know about me?” whispered Beth, tears filling her eyes.

“Not yet. Stefan knows. Trine explained to him,” revealed Jem, taking her hand. “I know this is all weird. Fairy tale shit. It freaked me out too at first. Still does sometimes but it’ll be ok.”

“I don’t really have any choice, do I?”

Jem shook his head, “Neither of us do.”

“Neither of us?” Beth echoed. “Is this to do with …her?”

Jem nodded. “I can’t explain yet. It’s a long story and the less you know, the safer you are. I promise once this is all sorted, I’ll tell you everything.”

“Dad,” she said, squeezing his hand. “I trust you. If you say we need to go, we go. I just don’t want to be separated from you again.”

“We’ll be together,” he promised her. “I’ll make sure your room is close to ours or with Meryn. We’ll not leave you alone.”

“Thanks, Dad.”

With their departure imminent, the beach house became a hive of activity the following day. Both Meryn and trine were busy packing, debating how much they needed to take for Luna.

“Just summer clothes,” snapped Jem as he walked through their discussion. “This is a flying visit. Hopefully only a few days.”

“Hopefully,” agreed his mother. “If it turns out to be a longer stay, you can always come back for anything you need.”

A knock at the door interrupted them.

“That’ll be Michael,” commented Meryn.

“I’ll get it,” muttered Jem, pushing his way past the two women.

His mood lightened when he saw the American vampire standing in the small, enclosed courtyard.

“You requested an escort, sire,” the American vampire stated with a theatrical bow.

“Technically, my mother did,” laughed Jem. “Good to see you. Thanks for getting here so quickly.”

“I assume this has something to do with our dark angelic friend,” observed Michael as he stepped inside.

“How did you guess?” sighed Jem as he closed the door. “Drink?”

“Please,” replied Michael. “What’s the urgency? I thought from what Meryn reported at court after you left that you had curtailed her liberty?”

“So, we thought,” replied Jem, pouring them both some wine. “Crazy question for you. Have the crows at the castle been behaving strangely?”

“Funny you should mention them. We’ve been finding lots of dead birds recently.”

“Drained of what little blood they have?”

“No one has though to check as far as I know,” replied Michael, a concerned look furrowing his brow. “Is Anna killing the crows?”

“We think she’s one of them,” revealed Jem quietly. “We know she can shapeshift. It’s just a hunch but the source is reliable.”

“That might answer a few questions,” the American vampire admitted. “Now, I hear from Stefan that you’ve had one of your children return to you. I thought that might be why you were returning so soon.”

“That’s part of it,” replied Jem. “Beth, can you come out here, please? There’s someone I’d like you to meet.”

“Give me a minute,” Beth called back.

A few moments later, the curtain moved aside and Beth stepped into the living room. Still pale and thin despite the weeks of rest and recovery, she almost shimmered with ethereal beauty. Her long dark hair lay over her slender shoulder in a thick braid. Her brown eyes, a match for her father’s, were wide with an unspoken fear.

“Beth, this is Michael. He’s come to help us travel tonight,” introduced Jem warmly. “Michael, this is my daughter, Beth.”

“Delighted to meet you,” said Michael with a smile. “I hope you’re recovering after your ordeal.”

“Getting there…I think,” replied Beth shyly. “Dad, can I have some wine, please?”

Sensing that her need was for something stronger than the chianti they were drinking, Jem fetched a fresh bottle of blood infused wine and poured her a generous glass from it.

“Thanks,” she said quietly as she accepted the full glass. “Does it take long to travel to this vampire castle?”

“Mere minutes,” replied Michael. “If you’re not used to our ways of travelling, you might feel nauseous at first but it passes.”

“Minutes?” she echoed looking confused.

“It’s a vampire thing,” explained Jem. “It’s how I brought you here.”

“I don’t remember that…”

“If Jem doesn’t object, I’d be delighted to see you safely to the castle,” offered Michael, flashing a smile at her.

“Fine by me if its fine by Beth,” replied Jem.

“I’ll take good care of her,” promised Michael, barely able to take his eyes off the fledgling vampiress.

Midnight was approaching as Jem and Trine, who was clutching a sleeping Luna, touched down lightly in their usual suite of rooms. A fire burned brightly in the hearth, the lamps were lit and a supper tray was waiting for them on the table beside the fireplace.

“Home sweet home,” sighed Trine as she gazed round the familiar room. “I’ll just settle Luna in her cot.”

“Let’s keep her with us tonight,” countered Jem. “Just til we work out what’s going on with our friend.”

With a nod, Trine settled their sleeping daughter in the centre of their bed. Just as she was about to ask where Michael and Beth were, there was a knock at the door.

“Come in,” called Jem as he hefted he backpack from his shoulders.

With a squeal of protest from the hinges, the door opened and Michael entered carrying Beth in his arms.

“Rough flight,” he explained as he carried her over to one of the fireside chairs. “Send for some blood. Human blood. She passed out when we landed.”

Without hesitation, Trine rang the bell to summon a member of the household staff.

“Where did you land?” quizzed Jem, kneeling before his frail daughter.

“On the ramparts. I thought fresh air might make it easier on her.”

“And I’m guessing it didn’t,” added Jem with a wry smile. “Beth, you ok?”

With tears in her eyes, she shook her head, “I feel sick.”

“It’ll pass in a minute or two,” promised Trine softly as she passed her a small glass of wine. “Some blood will help. It’ll be here in a few minutes.”

“I’ll fetch Meryn,” suggested Michael. “I think she needs something more than blood but I’m no healer.”

“Thanks, Michael.,” said Jem. “Probably a good idea.”

“There’s no need to fuss,” protested Beth weakly. “I just need a minute.”

“Better to be safe than sorry,” said Trine firmly.

“Trine’s right,” agreed Jem and Michael together.

When Meryn arrived a short while later, she wasn’t alone. Stefan followed her into the family’s chambers concern etched in his usually serene face.

“An unexpected pleasure,” he greeted them, hugging Trine before embracing Jem. “And you’ve brought a new member of the Cinque Famiglia too.”

“Good to see you,” replied Jem, keeping an eye on his daughter while Meryn was administering some herbs and potions along with a goblet of warm blood, “I’ll introduce you to my daughter when she’s recovered a bit. The flight took a lot out of her.”

“Delighted that you brought her. Any member of your family is always welcome to call the castle home.”

“Thank you. Appreciate it.”

“You haven’t eaten yet,” observed Stefan spotting the untouched tray. “I’ll send for another tray for Meryn and I and some more wine, shall I?”

“Oh, please, Father,” sighed Trine, relieved to have everyone she loved safely under one roof.

Half an hour later with Beth more or less recovered from the journey, they were all seated round the table in Jem and Trine’s chambers enjoying a light supper and some exquisite blood infused wine. It hadn’t escaped Jem’s attention than Michael had made sure he was seated next to Beth. His mother caught his eye as he observed them and nodded. She too had noticed Michael’s immediate attraction to Beth.

“Tell me again why you think Anna is hiding in plain sight among the castle’s crows,” requested Stefan, bringing Jem’s attention back to the moment.

“We had good reason to believe that she was hiding in Luna’s ragdoll. She can shapeshift,” began Jem calmly. “Meryn and I thought we had trapped her inside the doll in a box the night we left here. Apparently we failed. Luna told me Anna was with your crows.  She’s communicating with her somehow.”

“It explains all the dead birds we’ve been finding,” commented Michael.

“I don’t think we should be speaking so openly about this,” cut in Meryn sharply. “We don’t know who is listening.”

Stefan nodded, “We can meet tomorrow in one of the sealed court chambers. We need to find her especially in view of what she has done to Beth. She must be held accountable for that in front of the court.”

“Agreed,” stated Meryn. “But you will need to wait until my grand daughter is stronger before you bring her before the Court of the elders to give evidence. She needs to recover from her ordeal first.”

“Of course,” agreed Stefan without hesitation. “The whole castle is at your disposal. Whatever it takes, Meryn.”

“Thank you.”

“Would it be possible to seal the castle until we find her?” asked Jem as he refilled everyone’s goblets.

“Already done,” replied Stefan. “If she’s still here, we’ll find her.”

The castle kitchens opened out into a small courtyard at the rear of the castle, near the north gate. Despite the late hour, the kitchen was a hive of activity suggesting to Anna that important guests had arrived. Soundlessly she transformed from the crow form she had favoured of late into a tiny mouse then scampered under a gap in the kitchen door on a mission to discover who had arrived. Hidden from sight in a corner near the sink, she watched and listened, searching for clues. When she spotted one of the stewards preparing a carafe of blood infused wine, Anna decided to follow him to see where he took it.

Conversation around the table had lightened with Stefan holding court. He entertained Beth with anecdotes of Trine’s childhood growing up in the castle. There were several stories that Jem had never heard. He was grateful to Stefan for making ever y effort to help Beth feel at ease among them.

With a soft knock first, one of the castle stewards entered carrying a fresh carafe of wine. Conversation paused while the steward refilled their goblets, placed the carafe on the table retrieving the empty one then prepared to leave. Just as he reached the door, a small movement at the edge of the doorframe caught Jem’s eye. He watched as a small mouse scurried out of the door at the steward’s heels. It seemed to shimmer as it disappeared out into the hallway.

Recognising what he had just witness, Jem took a deep breath then said as calmly as he could, “Anna’s here. She’s in the castle.”

A Flower Crown to Mark Litha

June 21st, the longest day in the Northern hemisphere, otherwise known as the summer solstice or Litha.

In the UK, the solstice is widely associated with Stonehenge and the druids with crowds gathering ever year to watch the sunrise. Stonehenge dates back to 3100BC with the famous standing stone circle itself dating back to 2600-2400BC but did you know that the summer solstice has been celebrated around the world for over 10000 years?

The ancient Celts worshipped Bel, a god associated with the sun, light, healing, and fire around the time of the solstice although there is a strong connection now to Beltane which is celebrated around 1st May to mark the mid-point between the spring and summer equinox.

The Romans honoured the goddess Vesta around the time of the solstice by celebrating a weeklong festival, the Vestalia. Vesta was attended in her temple by the Vestal Virgins who tended her sacred flame. It was said that if the fire went out then Rome would fall.

The Vikings also celebrated the summer solstice with fires and feasting. They believed that at the solstice the veil between worlds was thin and used it as a good time to communicate with the spirit world to divine the future. They too lit bonfires that were intended to drive away any malicious spirits.

In Celtic mythology, it was believed that the summer solstice (Litha) was a time when the veil between our world and the faerie world was at its thinnest. Mythology also marks the solstice as the time of the annual battle between the Oak King who ruled for the first half of the year and the Holly King who ruled until Yule (winter solstice).

Slavic nations historically celebrated Kupala Night at the summer solstice. This was a celebration of fire and water where young couples would jump over the fires to ensure fertility and single girls would float flower crowns down rivers to attract love.

Modern day Litha is celebrated in s similar way by Pagans and Wiccans with bonfires and feasting, the wearing of flower crowns and with rituals to honour the sun and the earth, showing gratitude for a successful harvest to be gathered in.

It fascinates me to see how ancient traditions, myths and rituals remain entwined in 21st Century life.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to make my flower crown and to build a bonfire. Anyone got a match?

(Images sourced via Google – credit to the owners)

The Measly Jar of Motivation – what if you gave yourself permission to dream?

Oh, now there’s a question! Who among us doesn’t dream?

I dream on a regular basis. No, I’m not talking about the snatches of dreams that we recall after a night’s sleep but instead I mean our hopes and dreams. If you could wave a magic wand and bring your dream life to life what would your world look like?

Personally, I would start with my kids. I’d love to see them both settled in their dream homes and following their dream careers and living their best lives. All I want is for my kids to be healthy and happy.

For myself, I dream of finding my “and she lived happily ever after” life. This isn’t a pity post, but those who know me, know that life hasn’t always dealt me the kindest hand. Let’s leave that thought there.

In an ideal world, I’d live in an ocean front house like Jake and Lori’s house from my Silver Lake series of books. That really would be my ideal house and location. I’d have enough pennies in the bank not to have to worry about money. (I’m not putting a figure on it.)

I’d be a beach bum cum author. No surprises there!

Every morning, I’d walk the beach at sunrise before enjoying breakfast on the sun deck with my book before spending a few hours writing. There would be no writer’s block! Words would flow effortlessly onto the page. (Well, this is my dream life so why not. LOL)

It goes without saying that there would be at least two large fluffy cats sharing my home in my dream world too.

In this dream life, my books would be on the shelves in the bookstores and be selling well. If I saw any in the stores I’d autograph whatever was on the shelves as a surprise to the reader who eventually picked it up.

Life would be filled with family and close friends and unconditional love.

Evenings would be back lit with stunning sunsets and sleep at night would be sound and uninterrupted.

Oh well…..a girl can dream…..

What would your dream life look like? Please comment below.

An Open Letter of Complaint to Meta…Mark Zuckerberg are you listening? Are there any humans left in Meta’s customer service departments?

To Whom It May Concern

Since mid- March 2026 I have been corresponding with the Meta Pro Team in an effort to resolve an issue around unauthorised payments that were debited from my bank card. These potentially fraudulent payments total around $200 with a further $10 remaining as an outstanding balance on my Meta account.

Despite literally hundreds of emails over the past 12 weeks, I am no closer to a resolution or even an explanation about these payments thanks to the AI generated nonsense that the Meta Pro Team issue by way of a response.

I have refrained from going public with this up until now as I believed naively that I would eventually reach one of the remaining humans at Meta and get either a satisfactory explanation and hopefully a refund of these charges.

As a rule, I do not advertise via Facebook as historically adverts have failed to generate an increase in sales. However, in February 2026, for the first time in 5 years, I set up an advertising campaign for  my book, Riley. I paused it after a few days as it was not generating the anticipated result and I paid the bill of around $25.

At the start of March over a period of 8 days, my account was hit with multiple charges ranging from about $3 up to $18-$20 and coming to a total of circa $200. As soon as I spotted these I reported it to Meta and froze my bank card.  Trying to get a response to my report of potential fraud proved challenging but eventually case 1206XXXXXXXX7513  was created.

Please see below some examples of the Meta Pro Team’s responses to my complaint –

Hi Coral,

Greetings for the day!

This is Patricia from Meta Pro Team and I am contacting you in reference to your ticket number: 1206xxxxxxxx7513.

Thank you for your response .This is to inform you that we have already worked on your issue and the case has been closed as necessary information have been provided from our end .

You may initiate a new chat if you have any issues : https://www.facebook.com/business/help


Thank you for contacting Meta Pro Team. We wish you and your business well.

Regards,
Patricia
Meta Support Pro T
Hi Coral,

Greetings for the day! This is Elias from Meta Pro Team and I am contacting you in reference to your ticket number: 1206xxxxxxxx7513.

Thank you for your response .This is to inform you that we have already worked on your issue and the case has been closed as necessary information have been provided from our end .

You may initiate a new chat if you have any issues : https://www.facebook.com/business/help


Thank you for contacting Meta Pro Team. We wish you and your business well.
Regards,
Elias
Meta Support Pro 
Hi Coral,

This is the final decision.

This is Gracie from Meta Pro Team and I am supervising the team that was assigned to handle your case earlier. We have well received your request wherein you have contacted us in regards to your hacked Account and your reference number is: 1206xxxxxxxx7513.

Coral, kindly accept our sincere apologies for the inconvenience that may have been caused during the chat interaction with our representative. We definitely know how important this is for your business and we are willing to help you as much as we can. We also do apologize on the extended time it’s taking for your concern to be resolved. I understand how important it is for you to get this issue fixed as soon as possible. I will be more than happy to assist you.

To help you best to get this issue sorted for you, we had raised the concern with our specialized team to review the compromised of your Business Manager, and we got an update on the review as well where after the careful review we don’t believe there is evidence to suggest there was a compromise.

As a workaround if you lost the access on this business, you can check with the other known admin of the business to assign you an admin access. I am sure this should work in your case.

Finally, please be aware that the case shall be closed after the indicated solution.

We hope that we have provided you the necessary information. Since the problem appears to be clarified, we will proceed to close this ticket.

For any other issues, please feel free to initiate a chat support session at the following link: https://www.facebook.com/business/help

Thank you for choosing Meta Support Pro and all the best in your business.

Regards,
Patricia| Meta Pro Team
To learn more about supporting your business with Meta visit: https://www.facebook.com/business/help and https://www.facebook.com/business/learn/courses

Thanks,
Patricia
Hi Coral,

Hope you’re doing well!

This is Akruti from Meta Pro Team. I just wanted to follow up with you on Email for the same Reference Case ID: 1206xxxxxxxx7513.

I’m sorry you’re having trouble logging into your account. If you think your account was taken over by someone else, enter your Facebook password at this link and we’ll help you secure it:

https://www.facebook.com/hacked?ref=cr

Once you’re able to log in to your account again, let us know and we’ll help solve your problem.

If there is anything else that you need help with, you may reply back to the email thread and I should be happy to assist you.

Thanks & Regards,
Akruti

Meta Pro Team

Is this the standard of customer service that Meta advocate? This is only a small selection of the nonsense replies that my emails have attracted.

I had a chat with the Meta AI bot and it advised asking for the complaint to be put to the Appeals Board or escalated to the Meta Oversight Board. That sounded promising but the Meta Pro Team have failed to escalate this to anyone.

The consequences of this ongoing concern are that for the last 12 weeks I have kept the usage of my Facebook author page www.facebook.com/coralmccallumauthor to a minimum for fear of incurring further unauthorised charges. This has restricted my ability to connect with my readers and generate potential sales resulting in a loss of income.

I am going public here and now in a final attempt to track down a human being at Meta who is capable of investigating and resolving this complaint case.

Regards

Coral

One ring, five centuries (flash fiction)

Summer 1592

Checking the hidden inner pocket of his ornate silk doublet, William breathed a nervous sigh of relief. It was still there. He had been anxious that it might have been lost on the ride out to the picnic spot under the giant oak. Their favourite spot within his father’s estate. When Elizabeth had insisted that they give their horses their heads and set off at a gallop, he had been forced to give chase.

Glancing at the headstrong young woman who had stolen his heart, he knew this was his moment.

“Lizzie,” he began as he went down on one knee before her. “Will you do me the honour of agreeing to become my wife?”

Tears of joy filled her blue eyes as she replied, “Yes. Yes, I will.”

Smiling, William slipped the gold pyramid diamond ring onto her slender ring finger then lowered his lips and kissed her hand.

Autumn 1992

Around her, the house was blessedly quiet after her fraught day in court. In the bedroom next door, her twin daughters lay sound asleep, oblivious to the bitter divorce battle that had raged in the courtroom all day. Hearing that she had been granted sole custody was that Lizzie had needed to hear. She didn’t want that monster near her precious girls. Details of the generous divorce settlement had washed over her. Afterwards her lawyer had said she should have pressed Bill for the house in Devon and for a larger share of the firm that they had run together…her firm originally.

Seven years of a toxic, emotionally abusive, adulterous marriage were finally over. She could scarcely believe it. There was only one thing left to be undone.

Carefully, Lizzie slid her antique Tudor gold engagement ring with its pyramid point diamond from her ring finger.

She was finally free.

Winter 2022

An old-fashioned bell jingled as the young man entered the high-end jewellers. Dressed in black leather from head to toe, his long dark hair falling over his slender shoulders, Will wasn’t the usual style of customer that the antique jewellers attracted.

With two free days between gigs, he had seized the opportunity to check out a Tudor ring that he had seen advertised online. He needed the ring to be authentic when he finally plucked up the courage to ask Lizzie to marry him.

When the manager brough the ring out for him to view, he knew instantly that this was “the one.” A pyramid point diamond, set in a simple gold rectangle with some worn engraving on the ring’s shoulders.

As he slipped the ring in its black velvet pouch into his inside jacket pocket, Will wondered how many true loves it had shared over the last five centuries.

(credits to the owner of the image – sourced via Google)

A walk in WitchWood….

Sometimes in life you need to pull up those “big girl panties” and step out of your comfort zone. Sometimes you need to challenge yourself. It’s never easy but it’s there to be done.

I did just that recently.

I stepped so far out of my comfort zone! So, what did I do?

I took part in my first ever trail race.

It’s been almost a year since I last ran but when I entered the inaugural Witchwood Run at festival level, I felt confident that I could at least walk a couple of laps of the 5.9km course. The event was being run by a friend so I had also volunteered my services as a marshal for later on in the day. (In fact, when I submitted my entry weeks ago, he messaged and asked, “why have you entered my race?”- a very good question!)

The Witchwood Run was badged as a family affair so we took that literally – Girl Child also offered her services as a marshal while Boy Child took things a step further and entered the full 24 hr event, despite never having done any trail running and only ever having run 20km on the road.

Shortly after 7:30am on the Saturday morning, we made our way up to the event’s base camp at Everton Scout Camp in Inverkip, weighed down with bags full of clothing, food, juice and a pop-up tent. Least said about the walk up that hill the better.

We set up camp then Boy Child and I went across to the scout hut to complete our race registration, collect our numbers and our all-important timing chips. The whole area was buzzing with runners arriving and making their final race preparations. From the size of the tent village near the start line, many of them had camped out the night before. Hardy souls these trail runners.

Weirdly I wasn’t nervous. I can get nervous about going to Tesco so feeling calm felt bizarre. That calm feeling lasted until the race directors gave the assembled runners their pre-race briefing then panic rather than nerves hit me like a tidal wave!

What was I doing there? Running races were the late Big Green Gummi Bear’s territory not mine. I felt like an imposter! Fear flooded through me that I was about to make a total fool of myself. Riddled with self-doubt and anxiety, I let the whole scene play out around me. Could I do this?

Still feeling totally panicked I walked across the start line.. well, the clock was ticking. Time to find out what I was made of.

Boy Child crossed the start line with me but quickly forged on ahead. He had his own target in his sights.

My target? I’d told myself I could complete three laps.

As I climbed the stile at the start of the first ascent, I continued to question my sanity. The initial climb up a narrow steep trail criss-crossed with tree roots was tougher than it needed to be. Still panicking, my breathing was shallow and I was quickly gasping for each breath.

My inner voice of reason kicked in and told me to stop being a wimp and to get the job done.

The trail emerged out of the trees onto a fire break road that the course followed downhill for over a kilometre before it took a turn through a gate onto a forestry track. At the end of that undulating track was a gate that led into a field. It was all uphill as the route followed the field’s perimeter round to a second gate that led into a very boggy uneven field to be traversed. Once out of “Shrek’s swamp”, it was across a cattlegrid, back up the long drag of a hill on the fire break road (that gentle downhill on the way out became an endless hill on the way back) then it was back down through the trees, over a second stile then downhill over the timing mat.

At one point while I was walking down the fire break road on the first lap there was a hoarse crow flying above me cackling loudly. I swear that that was The Big Green Gummi Bear laughing at me!

What was I doing there in among all these experienced runners!

Gradually, as I talked myself down, I realised that several of the other competitors were walking with many of them looking as out of shape as me. Whew!

The course was tough going but after two laps I felt ok. Conscious that I hadn’t eaten much, I decided to take a pit stop for dome food before tackling lap three.

As I descended down towards base camp, my calves began to cramp up and I really struggled to get over the second stile without falling.

Duly fuelled up for a third lap, I set off again, cursing that first ridiculously steep section under my breath. This lap, I felt more relaxed and was even enjoying the whole experience. The fear was subsiding thanks to largely to the encouragement of my fellow competitors. Everyone was rooting for everyone else and there were lots of shouts of “well done” and “keep going”. Seeing and hearing such camaraderie warmed my heart and helped to raise my spirits. Halfway round lap three, my brain began to contemplate that maybe there could be a fourth lap…

As I crossed the boggy field for the third time, I could feel both knees protesting. Walking back up the fire break road seemed to take forever as my knees grew sorer and sorer and my calves began to tighten again. The descent down into base camp was agony. It felt as if someone was stabbing knives into the sides of my knees with every step I took. As I climbed over the stile at the end of the lap, common sense prevailed and I decided to call it quits, (I knew I still had to be on my feet for several more hours to complete my marshalling stint.)

I had done what I set out to do. I had put my money where my mouth was and completed three laps (18 km or thereabouts) and had earned myself a stunning bronze Witchwood medal. 

Go me!  LOL

Reflecting back on the event, with my knees still aching, I’m proud of what I achieved. That’s not something I acknowledge very often.

While I had been undertaking my marshalling duties deep into the night, I had been swapping timing chips for medals. It planted a seed. The silver medals are very pretty….. to earn a silver medal, you needed to complete six laps… could I manage that in a couple of years’ time?  Was four or five laps a more sensible target for 2027? Time will tell.

As for Boy Child, I’m super proud of him! He managed a fantastic fifteen laps (88.5km) and earned one of the coveted black medals. Quite the achievement for him and a proud mummy moment for me.

To find out more about the event and 2027’s event details please check out.

The WitchWood Run – 16th May 2026 | 24hr Lap Race in Historic Inverkip

(credits to the owner of the above image )

Every picture tells a story….

Every picture tells a story or so the saying goes…. wonder what the story of the establishment that that sign belongs to is….. I’ll leave that your imagination for now.

Normal blog service will resume next week

Meditation- an acrostic poem

Making time to consciously slow life down

Easier said than done

Discipline required to create the space

Internal switch to the real world disengaged

Taking time to be still, eyes closed

Attention on the breath- in and out

Trusting the process – going with the flow

Images flashing through the mind’s eye

Only a few minutes makes a huge difference

Now open your eyes to the world around you

(Image sourced via Google- credits to the owner)

What Do You Want To Do When You Grow Up?…Well, it sure as Hell wasn’t this!

A bit of a flippant title but hopefully it grabbed your attention.

What do you want to do when you grow up? Or have you fallen into the trap and grown up?

I’m of an age that I am now in twilight of my “corporate” career and the question “what do I want to do when I grow up?” has crept up more and more often of late.

I’ve half-joked for years that I joined the organisation that I’ve worked for all my adult life to make up my mind what I wanted to do when I grew up and decided that I really didn’t want to actually grow up. There’s more than a grain of truth lingering there.

Growing older is unavoidable and to be embraced as too many people don’t get the chance to grow old. As the years have passed, I have done all the usual adult things- I took out a mortgage and bought an apartment with my then boyfriend and when we got married we upgraded to a house, then another house and another, I had children, I became a widow at 53…. all decidedly adult facts of life but at heart, I still haven’t grown up.

My inner child is still very much alive!

Like most children when I was a little girl, I couldn’t wait to grow up. I dreamed of being an author, of being a doctor or a forensic pathologist. I dreamed about meeting rock stars. I dreamed about living in New York and about owning a beach house (that dream is still very much alive but will require a significant lottery win to make it happen.) All the usual things that kids dream about. What were your childhood dreams? Have any of them materialised?

Let’s face it- adulting isn’t much fun at times. We all need something to dream about. Being a responsible adult, especially if you are a parent, is hard bloody work! I’ve done more than my fair share of adulting over the years but I still don’t view myself as a grown up.

I passionately believe that it is all a state of mind. Being a woman in her mid-50’s doesn’t automatically mean that I want to fall into the trap of the “twin set and pearls” look with the highlighted hairstyle to hide the emerging grey. Maybe it’s a Gen X thing but I still wear my hair long in the same style that I have since high school complete with increasing grey strands of glitter. I spend most of my life dressed in rock band tees and jeans along with my trademark Converse. (Everyone who knows me knows of my love of and addiction to Converse. Please don’t ask how many pairs I own.) I’ll happily wander around barefoot in shorts and vest tee all summer long. I love listening to music especially hard rock and heavy metal and yes, I have several tattoos.

Back to those childhood dreams for a moment. It took 44 years but I did finally become a self-published author. I’ve also been fortunate enough to meet several of my music icons on more than one occasion. True, I never got the college/university degree to become a doctor or a forensic pathologist but I have continued to explore and learn alternative, natural healing techniques.

So, to return to the original question, what do YOU want to do when you grow up?

I don’t want to grow up!. I have no intentions of growing up! It’s bad for your mental wellbeing.

I’ll continue to chase those dreams in my jeans and tees while listening to loud rock music and strive for something more important that being a grown up. I’m on a mission to live “happily ever after.”

Anyone care to join me on my mission?

(Image sourced via Google- credit to the owner)

Beltane is fast approaching….are you fired up?

I saw the above picture on Facebook last weekend and it struck a chord.

Change is afoot in my world and I’ve spent the last few days contemplating it. That picture filled me full of a renewed sense of hope.

“So, what’s Beltane got to do with it?”

“What’s Beltane?”

Beltane is a pagan/Gaelic celebration that marks the midpoint between the spring equinox and the summer solstice. This year that’s 1st May. As a festival it was gradually dying out by the middle of the 20th century but since the late 1980’s it has seen a rekindling. (See what I did there? Hee hee)

Beltane is a fire festival.

According to Irish mythology, Beltane marked the beginning of summer when farmers would lead their cows out to the summer pastures. To celebrate this, ritual bonfires were lit and the local people would walk round or in between the fires with their cattle. These fires were believed to have protective powers. At this time too, every household’s fire was doused and relit with embers from the Beltane fires. It was a time for feasting and celebration.

Beltane is a celebration steeped in the shedding of darkness (winter) and the welcoming back of the light (summer).

It’s a time of change. A time of transition and this year for me personally, its significance isn’t lost on me. (More on that another time.)

If you feel stirrings of passion for something or a need for new beginnings this week, trust your gut instincts and let the Beltane fires energise your soul.

That new project that you were thinking about…start it!

The book you plan to write…start it!

The new whatever it was you have been dreaming about…start it!

I have!

(picture sourced via Facebook – credits to the owner)