Meet the Writer 2024- parts 1-5

Some of you may remember the Meet the Writer online challenge from 2023. When I saw Beth Kempton promoting this year’s challenge, I was excited to see what topics came up.

Here’s the first of 3 instalments.

Day 1/15- VIEW

Today is Day One of this year’s Meet The Writer event with 15 daily prompts from Beth Kempton.

View…. when I’m writing indoors this is the view of my desk. Cluttered but cosy. My desk is in the corner of the living room so there’s usually a cat or two for company. In summer I enjoy writing outdoors in the sun but it’s January and it’s cold and damp and dark so no view of that space today

Day 2/15 CATALYST

I can’t remember not writing. As soon as I could write a sentence, I was off and scribbling. I’ve mentioned before that writing has always been a coping mechanism for me. I wrote through high school to escape from persistent bullying. I’ve journaled extensively for the past 3/4 years as my key coping mechanism through first Lockdown then George’s illness. Writing fiction is like oxygen to me. I need to be lost in my book babies. Over the years they have proved to be a therapeutic escape from reality. Long may that continue…

Day 3/15….HANDWRITING

I write everything out longhand. I journal longhand. I write far quicker than I type. Do I like my own handwriting? Yes but a lot of folk struggle to read it. I love a nice pen, preferably with purple ink. I’m a sucker for pens… and notebooks. Yes I have several of those that are “too good to use”

Day 4/15 – RITUAL

Even although I am a complete creature of habit, I don’t really have any rituals associated with my writing. I have routines. Every night before I go to bed, I sit and write my diary entry for the day.

When I am buying notebooks to write future book babies in, I always buy 5 of each. Each novel so far has run to 4/5 notepads and I like them to match.

If my writing isn’t flowing as well as I’d like with my manuscripts, I will occasionally change to writing with a different pen in a different colour of ink to see if that flows better….it usually does.

Day 5/15 – COMPANIONS

My companions while I am writing tend to be feline rather than literary. I am the human slave to four spoiled furry boys. Let’s be honest- the cat has done an awesome job at domestication with their humans 😂

I do write near to my bookshelves so you could argue that all my favourite authors are just over my shoulder.

When I’m writing, the books I tend to dip into most often are usually my own as I search for particular scenes to ensure I maintain continuity.

Silently Watching Under A Wolf Moon

Two whole seasons had passed, and the castle was deep in the depths of a third. Winter had arrived.

Standing alone on the castle ramparts, Jem reflected on the past few months. The dark angel’s trial had proven to be a more protracted affair than any of them had envisaged. During the testimony of several of the initial witnesses who were called in relation to Anna’s earlier crimes, details of further crimes came to light. After a long debate among The Thirteen, Jefferson chose to add them to the original lengthy list. This in turn posed a challenge to the court as the witnesses for these newly listed charges were not present in the sealed chamber.

As autumn had arrived, Jefferson had created a fresh outer seal to the court, adding an extra floor of the castle space. This allowed him to lift his original seal and welcome thirty new witnesses into the courtroom.

Day after day, Jem sat along with the other witnesses and listened to the trial. Those first few weeks felt more like history lesson rather than court testimony. The oldest of the charges against Anna dated back to the last decade of the 18th century, less than five years after she had come into her powers. There were five charges that all related to the killing of vampire children who had been the children of mine owners in Devon and Cornwall. Even then her ego had led to carelessness as she had left some of the siblings of those children alive and it was them who now gave their testimony against her.

The detailed testimony of the final sibling triggered a debate amongst The Thirteen when he made reference to Anna’s creator, Tristan’s bloodline. He revealed that it well-known in the area that their vampire blood was tainted and not pure. He implied that this “taintedness” led to their erratic behaviour. To rule out any further issues in that regard, proceedings were halted until blood samples could be taken from Anna and analysed. The job of analysing the samples fell to Meryn. While she worked on them in one of the offices beneath the main courtroom, everything in the court stopped. It took her a week to glean a full profile to bring back before The Thirteen.

Early in the second week of October, the senior vampiress returned to the courtroom.

“Meryn,” began Jefferson. “Can you please confirm if the accusations made by our esteemed Cornish friends carry any truth?”

“There is some truth to them,” confirmed Meryn, glancing at her copious notes. “In due course, we will need to question Anna herself as it appears her history differs from what we have been led to believe up until now.”

“Differs?” echoed Stefan, raising one eyebrow.

“Anna is the daughter of Tristan in the sense that he created her and introduced his “pureblood” ancestry to her blood. However, there is a second pure blood variant present in Anna’s sample. We need to question her to confirm the timeline, but I am of the initial opinion that Anna was half-vampire by birth but was unaware of this. I suspect her natural vampire blood lay dormant until it was combined with Tristan’s. When the two pure bloods mixed, they have in fact created a “super” pure blood, for want of a more scientific description.”

“Is that even possible?” demanded Stefan sharply.

“Yes,” replied William, causing the rest of The Thirteen to turn and stare at him. “We saw that in Salem after the witch trials. Two pure blood families mixed their blood through marriage. The resulting children possessed extraordinary powers that they fortunately chose to use for good rather than evil.”

“Meryn, are you suggesting that Anna’s behaviour is the result of a chemical reaction triggered by bloodlines merging?” enquired Jefferson.

“Potentially but the timeline of the charges leads me to a different conclusion.”

“And that is?”

“I think both bloodlines may be tainted by something. I would need to run more tests, but I suspect that Tristan already had “super” pure blood as we’re calling it, but when Anna’s existing pure blood mixed with it, it created a unique superstrength of the vampire bloodline that we need to explore at a later time,” replied Meryn calmly. “Put simply, I feel that our sister Anna has the purest vampire blood that we have seen for several hundred years but there may be underlying issues here that we are unfamiliar with.  She comes from a very old bloodline.”

“One of the original four families?” asked Jefferson.

“Yes.”

“How long would you need to run further tests?”

“That could be a lifetime’s work,” surmised Meryn plainly. “To get a large enough sample, I’d need a sample from every vampire she has ever created.”

“Do we know how many that is?” asked Jefferson.

“We need to ask Anna that,” stated Meryn, feeling that she was stating the obvious.

Weaving an enchantment first, Jefferson addressed the dark angel, “Anna, you have heard Meryn’s report, so I don’t propose to repeat the facts. Answer one simple question for the court. How many vampires have you created?”

The dark angel stared at him, maintaining a stony silence.

“Answer the question, Anna.”

Unable to fight the truth enchantments that bound her, Anna stared straight at Meryn and answered, “One.”

“One?” echoed Jefferson, somewhat surprised.

“One,” she repeated. “Jem is the only vampire I have created.”

Meryn felt a chill run through her.

“If my theory is correct, I’ll need to test Jeremiah’s blood to confirm it,” stated Meryn as she struggled to maintain her composure. “I request permission from the court to take a sample from him.”

“Permission granted,” replied Jefferson. “Proceed.”

“I’ll need to take him to my office. The equipment is there.”

“A court official will accompany you both. He will record all conversation for the benefit of the court records,” advised Jefferson. “You have fifteen minutes.”

Meryn’s temporary office looked more like a science lab than her usual cluttered book filled study. Conscious of the presence of the court official, she kept conversation to a minimal. She indicated to Jem to take a seat and roll up his sleeve.

“I’ll need to draw a few vials to ensure a sufficient sample size for testing,” she explained as she prepared the kit.

“Just make it quick, mother,” grumbled Jem.

As he spoke, he felt his mother subtly probing his mind, telling him to fake a fear of needles to buy her some extra time.

“How many needles is this going to take?” he asked sharply. “I hope you know what you are doing?”

“Just one,” she said as she laid out the equipment on the desk. “Sit still. I’ll swab the area to clean it, insert the needle then take the samples. One sharp prick is all you’ll feel.”

“Hmph,” he muttered as he felt her probing his mind again.

“Listen carefully. This bloodwork could have serious ramification for you and Anna.”

“How?” he replied silently.

“You already have my pure blood by birth. You have her’s by vampire birth. I need to test my own, but I suspect that you are actually the purest vampire ever created.”

“You have to be joking?”

A sharp stab of a needle made him cry out, causing the court official to jump.

“Shit, mother! That hurt!” protested Jem loudly.

“Sit still,” she commanded. “You moved. I now need to re-insert the needle.”

While she withdrew the needle and slowly prepared a second one, they continued their silent conversation.

“If Anna’s blood is deemed of high enough purity, then despite the charges, the court won’t order the death penalty.”

Meryn paused as she jabbed Jem for a second time. This time he muttered under his breath but relaxed as she began to fill five small vials with his blood. While he watched his deep red blood drain into the thin glass tubes, he listened closely to his mother’s words in his mind.

“It will also confirm once and for all that Stefan will ensure you stay alive. I suspect he will order every one of The Thirteen be tested before today is over to map out the bloodlines.”

“Who all can be linked back to the four original families?”

“I’m not sure. Stefan, William, Jai and myself at the very least and apparently Anna.”

“So, what now?”

“Be vigilant. When the time comes to give your testimony don’t mention your agreement with Stefan. He’ll likely deny it.”

Placing the stopper in the final sample, Meryn declared, “All done. Just need to clean and dress that puncture wound as a precaution.”

With a small bandage wound round Jem’s biceps, the court official escorted them back to the courtroom.

Having re-taken their seats, proceedings continued.

“In your absence, Meryn,” began Jefferson. “The remaining members of The Thirteen discussed the merits of blood profiling before we proceed any further with the trial and agree that we should all provide samples for analysis.”

“Of course,” agreed Meryn calmly. “Testing the blood takes time. I would prefer to test them fully one at a time to minimise the risks of cross-contamination.”

“How much time?” quizzed Stefan.

“Ideally a week per sample.”

“Plus a week to test the samples from Jeremiah?”

“Yes.”

“In that case,” Jefferson concluded. “Proceedings are paused until the January full moon. The Wolf Moon. Everyone must remain with the castle but once we have secured the accused for everyone’s safety, you are free to leave the court chambers. You are not permitted to discuss court proceedings amongst yourselves. Anyone found doing so will appear before The Thirteen to answer to charges of contempt of court.”

There was a low murmur of conversation amongst the assembled witnesses.

“Alessandro. Michael,” called Jefferson. “Please bind Anna to Alessandro once more and move them both to Anna’s cell.”

Standing alone on the castle ramparts on the eve of the full Wolf Moon, Jem shivered. Above him the clear night sky was littered with stars, sparkling like precious jewels. The landscape was blanketed by a recent heavy winter snowfall. It too was sparkling in the icy cold moonlight. He breathed in deeply, enjoying the luxury of the clean fresh air. It might be his last for a while, he thought.

After it’s fourteen-week recess, the dark angel’s trial was due to recommence in the morning.

As he gazed out over the mountains, Jem felt a subtle probe at his mind.

“Good evening, mother,” he thought formally.

“Come to my tower now. I’ll cloak you so no one detects your presence.”

With a sigh, Jem turned his back on the view and headed along the ramparts towards Meryn’s tower. Trusting that his mother’s magic was in place, he walked confidently past several guards before reaching the private spiral staircase that led up to his mother’s study.

Without bothering to knock, he opened the door and walked straight into the room.

“Jeremiah,” she said with a smile. “Take a seat. Wine?”

“Please,” he replied taking a seat opposite her in front of the roaring log fire.

“It’s more blood than wine,” confessed Meryn as she poured two generous goblets. At the same time, she probed his mind to confirm that it was safe to speak.

“Thank you,” replied Jem, accepting the goblet from her. “Fortitude before we return to court?”

“Something like that. I wanted to speak to you before we are separated and sealed back into the courtroom.” She paused. “Tell me again how you met Anna.”

“I first saw her one Halloween. She appeared in the road in front of me when I was out running. She stared at me then flew off. I never saw her again until the following summer. She was waiting for me by a tree when I was out running the trails. She never spoke. She came up close to me. I thought she was going to kiss me but then she vanished. Turned out she had bitten me. Her fang broke and the tip lodged in my neck. Hurt like hell and bled every time I was near her for months. I never saw her for ages then she appeared near the old graveyard one night. Said I was forbidden fruit, and we’d talk soon.”

“Forbidden fruit?”

Jem nodded, “When she’d bitten me, she’d poisoned herself. I never saw her again until spring. I met her at the graveyard. She said we were related by blood. Said it was the bloodline of the man who created her. She offered me a choice. To either become like her or to kill her.”

“Interesting…” mused Meryn. “She was partially correct.”

“Explain,” said Jem, looking at her with a puzzled frown.

“There are two pure bloodlines flowing through Anna. Her own and Tristan’s. When I tested my blood, there was one. When I tested yours, I expected to find three. Anna’s, Tristan’s and my own. I did find three but not the three I was expecting to find. I found Anna’s, Tristan’s and an unknown new bloodline.”

“OK, you’re losing me a bit here, mother.”

“Anna and I are from the same bloodline,” revealed Meryn quietly.

“You’re related?”

“So, it would seem. None of the other members of The Thirteen are from the same one of the four original bloodlines. It would appear our family is weakening as neither Anna nor I have created many new vampires. Tristan’s bloodline is the weaker one within her, despite what she thinks. Ours is the dominant strain.”

“What does this all mean?

“I’m not sure,” Meryn admitted. “But I wanted you to know my findings before I report back to the court tomorrow. It is Tristan’s bloodline that’s tainted with evil. Have you ever felt tempted…”

“Stop right there,” snapped Jem not wanting to hear what she was about to ask.

“Have you?”

“Once,” he confessed. “It was while I was still partially transformed. I didn’t need to hunt then. Anna gave me a blood potion once a week. By the day that I was due to take it I was craving it. One week, the cat scratched my boy. Drew blood. It took all my willpower not to drink from him. I never touched him. I resisted…well, I bit the cat instead and drank from her, but I didn’t kill her.”

“Poor cat.”

“She wasn’t too pleased. When I met Anna that night and told her what had almost happened, she called the rage Rabbia Sanguigna.”

“Of course!” exclaimed Meryn. “How could I have missed it! Rabbia Sanguigna makes sense.”

“It does?”

“Yes,” she stated firmly. “Go! I need to do more research before tomorrow morning.”

Getting to his feet, Jem drained his glass and prepared to leave. “If you need me, I’ll be in my room.”

“I’ll send for you if I need you. In fact, give me another blood sample before you go.”

When Jem was escorted into the courtroom next morning, The Thirteen were already seated at the long, curved table. In the middle of the sacred symbol, Anna stood facing the table, bound by numerous freshly cast enchantments. For a moment, Jem felt sorry for her. Talking about his original meeting with her to his mother had stirred up a lot of memories, some of them better than others. I his heart, Jem knew he still fundamentally cared about Anna despite everything that had happened and all that she stood accused of.

“Court is now in session,” declared Jefferson at nine o’clock on the dot. “I’d like to extend our thanks to all of our assembled witnesses for their patience during the extended recess. I would now call upon Meryn to reveal her findings.”

“Thank you, Jefferson,” said Meryn, getting to her feet. “I have completed my analysis. I’ll try to keep my verbal report simple in the interests of time. I’ve prepared a more detailed written report for each of you. Copies are in front of you.” She paused. “For the benefit of our witnesses, there are four recognised original vampire families whose history can be traced back more than two millennia. Purebloods as we know them can trace their bloodline back to the original families. One of the four families however is on the brink of extinction, for want of a better word. Very few members from this family have married and had children with other purebloods. Members of this family tend to be healers and are less likely by nature to create new vampires. They can be reclusive and are deep thinkers. We’ll call this Family One. When I tested our sister Anna’s blood, I found traces of Family One and Family Three. I tested another of Tristan’s descendants and found Family Three and Family Four. A further descendant revealed Family Three and Family Four. I cannot be one hundred per cent sure with such a small sample group, but it is my belief that Tristan was a mix of Families One and Three but that Three was the dominant bloodline.”

“What about Family Two?” interrupted Alessandro.

“A good point,” acknowledged Meryn. “From the fourteen pureblood samples I analysed, Family Two only ever mixes with Family Two or Four. Intriguing. Something I may study further once this trial is over.”

“You said fourteen,” observed Jean, the French vampire. “But we number only thirteen.”

“My son, Jeremiah, is the fourteenth sample,” reminded Meryn, allowing herself a glance across to where Jem was sitting. “I am from Family One and Jem’s natural father was also from Family One. When I ran the analysis on Jem’s blood, I found something that surprised me. It’s really quite fascinating. He has three different variants of pureblood in his veins.”

“Three? But that’s unheard of!” protested Jefferson.

“It was until now,” Meryn agreed. “The key would lie with Family Three’s weakness for Rabbia Sanguigna. When Anna created Jem, she was unaware of his vampire heritage, as was Jem himself. Jem grew up believing he was mortal. My husband was mortal, and he accepted Jem as his own when we met. I placed an enchantment on my son to quash his vampire blood and traits so that he could live a normal mortal life. This was done with the approval from three members of the Court of Elders.”

“Stefan, is this true?” checked Jefferson.

“Yes. It was approved at the same time we agreed that Meryn could permanently remove her wings. Michael and Alessandro countersigned the decree.”

“Meryn, please continue,” prompted Jefferson, curious to know where this was now leading.

“When Anna created Jem, she completed a partial transformation first. However, even that partial transformation was enough to trigger Rabbia Sanguigna in my son, thanks to the presence of Family Three blood. Anna treated this condition with a mix of enchantments. She also gave Jem a potion, once he had been fully transformed, to delay the growth of his wings. She gave him a potion that was to be injected directly into the wing nubs monthly to curb their development. He followed this routine for twenty-five years. During his monthly ritual, some of the potion entered his bloodstream, permanently altering the composition of his bloodline. It has in effect created a new family. This will only be formally established should Jem have any children with a pureblood who has Family Three in their history.”

“A new pureblood family is an intriguing thought, Meryn. A welcome intriguing thought considering the diminishing Family One population but how does this relate to the charges brought against sister Anna?” commented Jefferson.

“Anna also suffers from Rabbia Sanguigna,” continued Meryn. “Although in her case it causes an inherent loathing for anyone with Family Three blood, including herself I suspect. Family Three blood in mortals has many similarities with one of the rarer mortal blood groups known as O negative. The mortal victims that Anna is accused of killing, especially the children, were all O negative as far as I can determine from their medical records.”

“So, you’re suggesting that Rabbia Sanguigna caused her to lose control and commit those crimes?”

“Yes,” said Meryn simply.

“Interesting analysis. Good work,” praised Jefferson looking thoughtful. “I don’t propose that we remove those breaches of the Golden Rules from the list of charges, but I do advise that we take Meryn’s information into account when reviewing them in due course.”

“May I add something else?” asked Meryn calmly.

“Go on.”

“Family One and Family Three blood in combination is toxic to any other vampire with that blood combination,” Meryn revealed.

“Interesting observation,” nodded Jefferson, looking thoughtful. “So, in conclusion, you are saying that Tristan’s bloodline is not tainted with evil but with the effects of Rabbia Sanguigna?”

“Correct,” replied Meryn. “I believe a court precedent has already been set regarding charges related to Rabbia Sanguigna crimes. As a member of the Court of the Elders, I request that this is taken into account.”

“Duly noted.”

Once again confined to the simple court living quarters and separated from Trine for the foreseeable, Jem lay on his bed staring up at the ceiling mulling over the events of the day. Several witnesses had given evidence after his mother’s revelation about bloodlines, and he knew with each testimony that his turn drew closer. Questions from The Thirteen were short and direct yet he was still anxious at the thought of answering them. In his case, Anna was charged with making him a full vampire against his will but, if he was already a pureblood, how could that charge stick?

A subtle movement of the air in the room brought him back to the present. He looked towards the locked door to see Trine standing there.

“Hey,” he said with a lazy smile. “This is a pleasant surprise.”

“Hey, yourself,” she said as she came to sit on the bed beside him. “I can only stay a minute. I shouldn’t even be here. The Thirteen aren’t allowed to talk to witnesses while the court is convened.”

“I know.”

“I needed to see you,” she said taking his hand in hers. “Your mother has woven a cloaking spell over the chamber, but it will only hold for a few minutes before someone detects it.”

“Is something wrong?”

Trine shook her head as her other hand subconsciously moved to her stomach, “I’m pregnant.”

“Pregnant?”

The ice maiden nodded, “Your mother confirmed it earlier. I’ve not told my father yet. I needed to tell you first.”

“A baby?” he said stunned by the news.

“Yes. Our baby. Our unique baby.”

Suddenly, the penny dropped, “The start of a new pure bloodline?”

Trine nodded.

Beginnings…an explanation

It’s now been a few days since I surprised the world by announcing the release of my first collection of poems.

Huge thanks to those who have already pre-ordered.

To those who may have been a little disappointed that it wasn’t a new novel that I was releasing, I humbly apologise and beg that you are patient with me a little longer.

I’m going to make myself vulnerable here and explain the background to Beginnings. Since last summer, when the Big Green Gummi Bear’s health began to decline, I have struggled with writing Book Baby 8. The creative juices just weren’t flowing and the creative fire became dull embers. My original plan had been that it would be Book Baby 8 that was released on 29th February 2024 but that wasn’t to be. My creative muses apparently had a different plan.

I parked Book Baby 8 for a few weeks late last summer then decided to type up what I had written and see if that triggered a fresh burst of creativity. So for several weeks I typed…. in fact I have over 30 000 words typed up. This helped me to re-connect with the tale but things with the Big Green Gummi Bear weren’t good and the real world had to be prioritised over my creative one for obvious reasons. Family had to come first.

At the start of December 2023 I picked up my pen again and began to make some progress once more….then Christmas hit…. and I stopped again…paused not stopped.

I had signed up to take part in Beth Kempton’s online Winter Writing Sanctuary over the latter part of the festive period. It’s a beautifully gentle way to stoke the creative fires. This year though the sparks it ignited were poetic ones and almost on a whim, I decided at the end of December that I would still self-publish on 29th February 2024 but it would be a collection of poems not prose. Cue a flurry of reviewing over 30 years worth of poems and deciding which ones to include and which to save for another day. Within two weeks, I had the project typed up, formatted, the cover designed ( the photo is one of my own so no licencing issues) and the paperback proof ordered. The speed that this project came together with was scary!

The plans are now all in place. Beginnings will be set free into the world on 29 February 2024.

The creative fires are gradually building and its time once more to pick up my pen and return to Book Baby 8. I might actually treat myself to a new pen in the hope that the words flow easier from it. (Weird writer quirk…just humour me on that)

With a bit of luck and a lot of self-discipline, I will have Book Baby 8 ready to release later this year. Wish me luck!

In the meantime, if you want to pre-order Beginnings, here’s the links

Beginnings – a collection of poems – Kindle edition by McCallum, Coral. Literature & Fiction Kindle eBooks @ Amazon.com.

Beginnings – a collection of poems eBook : McCallum, Coral: Amazon.co.uk: Kindle Store

There will be a paperback edition available in a few weeks.

New release coming 29 February 2024- Beginnings

My first collection of poems, Beginnings, will be published on 29 February 2024. This is a collection of poems that I have written over many years.  Many of them have appeared on my blog over the past ten years. Now felt like the right time to bring them all together in one small volume. (And of course, 29th February is too unique a date not to publish on – Yes, I’m weird about dates)

Beginnings is now available for pre-order worldwide for Kindle. Here’s the links

Beginnings – a collection of poems – Kindle edition by McCallum, Coral. Literature & Fiction Kindle eBooks @ Amazon.com.

Beginnings – a collection of poems eBook : McCallum, Coral: Amazon.co.uk: Kindle Store

There will be a paperback edition available in a few weeks.

Finding My Space

Over the past ten days or so, I have been attending an online Winter Writing Sanctuary hosted by the beautiful Beth Kempton. This is the second year I have brought the creative new year in within the sanctuary. For me, it’s a nice way to ease into the year ahead’s creative pursuits.

A few days into the course, the daily lesson centred around “building a space”. I thought I would share my short essay response to that lesson with you here-

Oh, where to begin! That’s a question I’ve asked myself many times over the past nine weeks since my husband passed away.

There are so many “spaces” in my life that need to be built or re-modelled. It’s a daunting prospect some days.

The whole dynamic of day-to-day life has shifted forever. Even though I’ve known for over three years that this shift was approaching, it still hit hard, bringing with it a veritable maelstrom of emotions that are still swirling around me.

The “space” that I feel I lost entirely in those early days of grief was my space in the world. I felt as though I didn’t know where I belonged anymore. Wearing this “Blue Peter” badge saying “widow”, I felt as though I had been cast into a void. I’ll be totally honest I still feel that way a lot of the time. I felt that I’d lost my very identity. Watching someone you love die changes a person forever. Who was I now? I’m still figuring that one out.

Friends would message in the first week or two after the funeral to say that they were thinking about the kids and I but were giving me “space” to get my head together. “Space” alone in my head was in fact the last thing that I needed! Left in my own mind, I kept mulling everything over and over, reliving every heartbreaking moment spent in the local hospice. I kept panicking about whether I was being strong enough for my kids. I was worrying about whether they are ok or not. I still am on that one. True they are both adults in their twenties, but their dad was the first person that they had ever lost. I fretted about whether I was really ok. Even on days where I felt more like myself for a few brief hours and felt I had my shit together, I’d panic that I wasn’t being honest with myself. It was in those early days that I really would have appreciated an invite to go for a coffee or a walk, but I accept that everyone else is busy with their lives too. The world keeps turning.

Then there’s the physical “space” around me. The house needs to change to become “my home” rather than “our home”. There are DIY projects that need to be organised that have gone ignored for years while we travelled the journey that was my husband’s illness. I wrote a list…well, three lists- big, medium and small DIY projects. Big projects need a professional. Medium ones need an extra pair of “handy” hands. Small ones I should be able to tackle alone or so the theory goes. Time will tell on that. It’s a lengthy list but in time I’ll get through it. First on the list is my leaking conservatory roof.

I’ll tell you a quick story. In the early days after my husband’s death, the house was transformed into a florist’s shop. The main issue with that was that most of my vases were lining the conservatory windowsills catching drips. The solution – all the bouquets of white flowers were put into those vases then placed back on the windowsill. Voila! Self-watering flowers that in actual fact lasted for weeks.

Other rooms in the house needed attention too. There were belongings to be packed away, thrown away or donated to charity. It was an emotional task … Maybe I’m nesting in a way, but I need to reclaim the physical “space” as my own, while not wiping out all of the past. It’s a delicate balance that needs to be struck.

I’m trying to look at my home for the past twenty years as though it were a new house and I’m just moving in. It’s hard, emotionally hard, but I accept that I need to go through the pain of these changes to heal from the loss.

I need to reclaim my creative “space” and my creative time. Working from home at the day job in the same space that I try to create my book babies in in the evenings is challenging. As time moved on from 2020’s Lockdown but I was still working from home full-time due largely to my husband’s illness, it became harder and harder to separate the two. Now that I’ve had a few weeks away from the day job, I’ve reclaimed the creative “space”. The creative fires are still small embers, but they are gradually burning brighter. I’m on the eve of returning to the day job as I write this, but I am also on the verge of relocating my “day job” space to the upstairs study. That “space” has been dominated by my late husband for the past few years. It was his “bat cave”. I still struggle to spend time in the room, but I know in my heart that I have to move beyond that. I’m slowly, piece by piece, endeavouring to make that “space” my own. The new curtains were a huge step forward. It’ll take time, lots of time, and there’s no rush but I will migrate upstairs for work and reserve my downstairs desk for creative purposes.

It’s a Leap Year. For a while I’ve said:

2023 was the year to be free.

2024 is the year to restore.

2025 will be the year to thrive.

So, the plan, the cunning plan, is to build these new “spaces” both internal and external over the coming year. It will be far from easy, but I will get there one small space at a time. I really don’t have any choice.

Beginnings – an acrostic poem

Breathe…it’ll be ok

Each new day another step forwards

Go cautiously. Go boldly. Just GO!

Insecurities running riot within

Nothing to be gained by looking backwards

New life adventures lie ahead

Initial fears scream in my head

Noise I don’t need to listen to

Girl, you’ve got this

Stride out towards the sun

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Happy 10th blogiversary to me!

It’s been 10 years since I started this blog… 10 years ago today. Some of you may even remember that first nervous post. Here’s a reminder for those of you who joined this creative journey along the way December | 2013 | Coral McCallum

Back in December 2013 I set myself the challenge to post once a week to my new blog page to try to overcome my fear of letting people read what I write. (Still not quite conquered that fear.) My 2014 personal challenge was to post at least once a week. I’ve posted every week since. (OK there have been a few very short “cheat” posts, but they still count as a post).

So how has the creative journey progressed since 29 December 2013?

Well, I’ve self-published seven novels. Seven! These seven include a five book series, the Silver Lake series. Who would ever have thought it- certainly not me! It still feels surreal to see my name on the cover of a book and to see my books on Amazon with all those beautiful twinkling stars beside them.

I’ve written numerous short stories for my blog, many acrostic poems and I’ve kept my Silently Watching dark vampire angel serialised fiction going for the majority of those 10 years ( sh…don’t tell anyone but she’ll be back in January). I’ve promoted my book babies via my blog.

I even upgraded and became a .co.uk! A small detail but a huge step for me.

Over those 10 years I’ve watched my personal world evolve and change too. Who would have thought back in 2013 that we would live through a global pandemic? I’ve watched my kids grow up (They still aren’t interested in anything mother writes so not everything has changed!) And over the past three years, I’ve watched “the Big Green Gummi Bear” battle with terminal illness and ultimately lose that battle at the end of October.

As I look back over the earlier blog posts, I can see them slowly evolving.

As I look back at myself now compared to the “me” of 2013, I’ve evolved too.

Change is good.

So, what is next for my blog? Who knows! Not me! LOL I’ve not written it yet.

As my 11th year as a blogger and indie author commences, there will be more short stories, more delving into the Measly Jar of Motivation, more poems and more dark vampire angel tales.

I don’t wish to dwell on it, but the last three years have been rough, and they have taken their toll physically and emotionally, so I’m keen not to set too stretching a goal for 2024. I’ll keep it simple- the creative goal for 2024 is to finish and publish “Book Baby 8”. I’ve been working on it for more than year but it’s been a stop/start effort over the past six months or so. There are 366 days of 2024 to achieve it in, so I have that one extra day up my sleeve to get it over the line.

If you’ve travelled this journey with me from the very start- thank you for sticking with me.

If you joined along the way – thank you for sticking with me.

If this is the first blog post you’ve seen – welcome and I hope you stick with me.

None of this creative progress would be possible without the love and support of each and every one of you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my blogs, liking and sharing the content, buying and reading my books and for having faith in me. I really do appreciate it.

All that’s left to say is to wish you a very Happy New Year when it comes. May 2024 be kinder to us all.

Love n hugs

Coral

xx

In The Wee Small Hours Of Christmas Morning (flash fiction)

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It had been a long hectic nightshift. So many deliveries. Everything kids had wished for this Christmas either weighed a ton or was the most awkward shape on earth to deliver. Those kids who had asked for mobile phones that came in small easy to handle boxes were his favourites…not that he was allowed to have favourites.

Checking his delivery schedule, he confirmed that the last delivery had been made and he’d come in ahead of schedule.

His wife wasn’t expecting him home for another hour…

Oh, what the Hell! He decided to take a few minutes to himself. He’d earned them, he reasoned.

Leaving his delivery vehicle in the car park, he walked across the dunes under the light of the full moon. Breathing a sigh of relief that that was the Christmas rush over for another year, he walked slowly along the moonlit beach, splashing his way through the small waves that washed over his black boots. Stuffing his hat into his belt, he allowed the gentle breeze to blow through his hair. He felt the weight lift from his shoulders. For the first time in weeks, he felt calm and relaxed.

His mind wandered to the plaque that hung in the family bathroom above the toilet roll – “Beach More Worry Less.”

Damn right, he thought…

A Small Town Called Miracle – “Hallmark” Christmas short story

I saw the above image on Facebook at the start of the month and giggled.

Then the creative juices began to stir. Wouldn’t it be fun to write my own “Hallmark” Christmas short story….. so I did.

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Miniature snow drifts had blown into the corners of the attic bedroom windowpanes overnight, adding to the festive vibe. Not that Holly’s room needed much more of a festive feel to it! In preparation for her arrival for the holidays, her grandmother had hung red drapes with snowmen on them, to match the flannel bed linen. A huge green blanket throw was draped over the old pine rocking chair covered in tiny Christmas trees. Even the rug on the floor was shaped like a snowflake. Christmas was Gramma’s favourite holiday. It had been her mum’s favourite time of the year too. If Holly didn’t know for a fact that she had been born five weeks early, she would have sworn that her mother and grandmother had conspired to ensure that her birthday fell on Christmas Day. That small co-incidence plus her name had led to endless teasing all through school. Even Jonathan had cracked jokes at her expense about it.

Johnathan…. the reason why she was back in the attic bedroom of her grandmother’s house for the holidays and the foreseeable future.

“Holly!”

Her grandmother’s voice called to her from downstairs.

“Coming,” she called back as she left the room. Maybe being home for the holidays surrounded by her grandmother’s love was just what she needed right now.

A delicious aroma of cookies baking filled the kitchen. Inhaling deeply as she entered the heart of the house, Holly couldn’t help but smile.

“Oh, that smells amazing!”

Blushing at the compliment, the older woman, with flour in her hair, said, “It’s just some cookies to take to the neighbours. I need your help though. I forgot to pick up more vanilla essence. I need it for my cupcakes. Can you run to the store for me?”

“Sure. Do we need anything else?”

“I’ll write you a list,” said her grandmother. “Ralph hasn’t been out her yet with his plow, so you’ll need to walk, I’m afraid.”

“You write the list and I’ll go grab my boots.”

Large fluffy snowflakes were still falling, adding to the six inches of snow already lying on the small town of Miracle. Glad of her goose-down jacket with its fur-lined hood, Holly headed towards Main Street, opting to take the short cut through the town’s only park. As she walked past the pond, she wasn’t surprised to see it was frozen almost the entire way across. A few unhappy ducks were sliding on the ice looking miserable.

Suddenly, she saw a huge white fluffy dog bounding towards her, a red frisbee in his mouth. Before she could step out of its path, the dog barrelled into her knocking her flat on her back into a pile of snow. Feeling slightly dazed, she looked up to see the dog staring down at her, its dark eyes pleading forgiveness.

“Goliath!”

The dog looked round then turned back to her and began to lick her face. Giggling at the wet doggy kisses, Holly tried to get to her feet, but the dog had other ideas, planting his huge paws on her chest.

“Goliath, let the lady up!” ordered its owner sharply. “Goliath, here! Now!”

With a guilty look, the large ball of fluff slunk off to lie in the snow.

“I am so sorry,” apologised the owner. “Are you hurt? Here, let me help you up.”

“I’m fine,” assured Holly, accepting the outstretched gloved hand. Glancing up, she found herself gazing into with two dark brown eyes. There was a sadness there that reminded her of the dog’s guilty look. Dusting snow from her jeans, she said, “I’m fine. Honestly. I don’t think he meant it.”

“He’s got no manners. Expects everyone to want to play with him. This is the first time he’s seen snow. He’s a bit over excited by it,” explained the dog’s owner as he drew the dog, Goliath, a dark look. “He’s only six months old. Still a puppy really.”

“But he’s huge!” exclaimed Holly.

“He is. He’s a Bernadoodle and he’s only going to get bigger,” he replied. “I’m David by the way.”

“David and Goliath?”

He nodded, “My sister thought it would be funny.”

“It is,” she giggled. “I’m Holly.”

“Pleased to meet you. Can I at least buy you a coffee by way of an apology?”

Holly hesitated.

“Please,” repeated David with a smile.

“I’d like that,” she heard herself reply.

Together, with Goliath on his leash, they walked through the park then crossed Main Street before turning down into the tiny boutique shopping area, Secret Close. Holding the door open for her, David ushered her into a small coffee shop called The Funky Bean.

“Hey, bro!” greeted the young woman behind the counter. “Hi, Goliath. How’s my favourite puppy today?”

“HI, Rebecca,” he replied as he pulled off his beanie, his long dark hair falling free. “Your favourite puppy is in big trouble. He bowled poor Holly here over in the park. She needs one of your special Funky lattes to recover.”

“Bad doggy,” scolded Rebecca leaning over the counter to stare down at the dog who at least had the decency to look contrite. “Two Funky festive lattes? Chocolate or cinnamon on top?”

“Chocolate please,” answered Holly.

“Same,” said David.

“Grab a table and I’ll bring them over.”

Over their lattes and some snowmen cookies, David and Holly discovered that they were both in town for the holidays to spend time with their grandmothers. They teased each other playfully about leading such exciting lives that the highlight of their holiday season was to come back to Miracle. Conversation turned to work as David asked Holly what she did for a living.

“I’m an author,” she revealed almost shyly.

“Wow! Don’t think I’ve ever met a real live author before. What kind of books do you write?”

“Romantic fiction,” she answered. “Historical romance.”

“Can’t say I’ve read a lot of historical romances,” he joked lightly. “I’m more of a psychological thriller or horror reader. Huge Stephen King fan.”

“Me too!” revealed Holly grinning. “So what’s your line of work?”

“Music. I’m a musician but I’ve just accepted a six-month post as a music teacher at the high school here.”

“Oh, I don’t have the patience for teaching,” laughed Holly.

“I’ll find out if I have in January.”

Half an hour later, as they were leaving the coffee shop, David said, “I don’t suppose you fancy meeting up later? It’s the Fire Department’s Santa Parade through town at six. We could go for a drink afterwards.”

“I’d love to,” agreed Holly. “Been years since I last watched the Santa Parade.”

“Great. I’ll meet you back here at five thirty, We can grab some hot chocolates to take with us. Will be cold standing on Main Street tonight.”

“Sounds good to me,” smiled Holly, a warm fuzzy feeling glowing inside at the thought of seeing David again later. “I’d best get going. Gramma will think I’ve got lost in the snow on my way to the store.”

“Blame Goliath,” joked David, holding on tight to the dog’s leash. “See you tonight.”

Armed with their hot chocolates, David and Holly negotiated their through the crowds who were lining Main Street to wait for the parade to start. The two new friends had agreed to head towards the library in the hope of getting a good view of the parade from the steps. When they reached it, it seemed like the rest of Miracle had had the same idea. Squeezing in beside one of the stone pillars at the bottom of the steps, Holly stood one step below David, feeling him towering over her but also conscious of the spice cedar aroma of his cologne. Being so close to him again stirred that warm fuzzy feeling deep inside her.

The Miracle Fire Department Santa Parade was one of the key Christmas traditions in the small town. Entering into the holiday spirit, all the firefighters dressed up as Santa and decorated their fire engines with fairy lights, reindeer, parcels and anything else that could be considered festive. There were about ten vehicles in the parade, including the fire chief’s SUV and three vintage fire engines from the town’s past. As they drove by, with Christmas music blaring loudly interspersed with bursts from the sirens, the firefighters tossed out candy canes to the local children.

Once the last engine had roared past, David put a hand on Holly’s shoulder, “Drink?”

With a smile she nodded.

“Make Mine A Double is closest,” he said. “Or we could walk over to Park’s tavern?”

“The Double’s fine,” replied Holly, using the shortened local name for the popular bar.

“Lead the way.”

Music, warmth and the buzz of a busy barroom welcomed them as they stepped in out of the cold. Spying a free table over in the corner, David suggested that Holy grab it while he bought them a drink.

“White wine, please,” she replied as he asked what she would like to drink.

Having shed her jacket, scarf and woolly hat, Holly shook out her long auburn hair then sat watching David up at the bar. He had removed his beanie, stuffing it into his pocket, while the bartender fetched their drinks. The sight of his thick dark hair tied back in a ponytail made her smile. He was the polar opposite to Johnathan who had had buzz cut blonde hair. Maybe it was the musician in him, but Holly could definitely see herself falling for him if she was in the market for a new man in her life. After the pain of a messy break up with Johnathan, men were off her Christmas list.

“Hope sauvignon is ok,” said David as he set a large wine glass down in front of her.

“Perfect. Thanks.”

Raising his beer to make a toast, David said, “To new friends and Christmas miracles.”

“I’ll drink to that.”

“Oh! I love this song!” declared Holly when she returned to their table with a second round of drinks later in the evening.

“Let’s dance,” suggested David, getting to his feet and taking her hand.

“But no one else is…”

“Who cares!”  he laughed, leading her onto the bar’s small dancefloor.

Giggling Holly allowed herself to get into the festive vibe as she jived to Rockin’ Around The Christmas Tree, expertly led by David. He had clearly danced to the song before, twirling her round at the perfect moments then sweeping her up into his arms as the song ended.

The bar’s regulars gave them a round of applause. Playing along, they took a bow then headed back to their table as two other couples ventured up to dance.

“Tonight’s been fun,” said Holly as she stood at her grandmother’s front gate shortly before midnight. David had insisted on walking her home, despite her protests that she would be fine.

“It has,” he agreed with a smile that caused her heart to skip a beat. “We should do it again tomorrow night. Let me buy you dinner.”

“I’d like that.”

“I’ll pick you up here at seven,” he said. With a wink, he stepped closer, put his hands on her upper arms and brushed a soft kiss on her forehead. “Goodnight, Holly.”

“Night,” she called after him, still feeling her arms tingling where he’d touched her.

Dinner on Saturday was followed by lunch on Sunday then a last-minute shopping trip to the outlets outside of town on Monday and a Christmas movie night at Miracle’s old-fashioned movie theatre on Tuesday. It was a whirlwind few days, but as she got up on Wednesday morning, Christmas Eve, Holly realised that she felt happy. It had been a long time since she had bounced out of bed feeling as relaxed and happy and she knew it was all down to her blossoming friendship with David.

Singing Jingle Bells to herself as she ran downstairs to get breakfast, Holly all but skipped into the kitchen.

“Someone’s happy this morning,” commented her grandmother from her seat at the table.

“Happy Christmas Eve, Gramma,” replied Holly, pausing to hug her grandmother on the way to the coffee pot.

“Happy Christmas Eve, Sweetheart.”

“Do you need anything from the store today?”

“List’s on the counter.”

“I’ve a couple of extras to pick up myself so I’ll go shopping after breakfast. If you need to add anything, call me,” said Holly, pouring her coffee. “I’m meeting David for lunch at one.”

Laden down with bags, Holly hurried towards the diner. She knew she was running late and that irritated her. She was never late! Just as she was in sight of the diner, she spotted a large black SUV parked in front of it. Her blood ran cold.

Johnathan…

“Well. Well. Well. Look who has finally shown up.”

She whirled round at the sound of the familiar voice.

“Johnathan, what are you doing here?” her voice waivered as she asked the simple question.

“I thought that was obvious. I’ve come to take you home for Christmas.”

“No.”

“Holly, you know how I feel about that word,” he began coldly as he reached out to take hold of her arm.

“Do not touch me!” she spat, her voice shriller than she had intended.

“Pardon?” said Johnathan, holding her firmly by the elbow. “Enough playing Hallmark happy families with grandma. Time to come back to Boston where you belong.”

“Let go of me!” she yelled, struggling to free herself from his vice like grip. “You’re breaching the terms of the restraining order. I’m going nowhere with you. Not today. Not ever!”

“You are coming home with me now, Holly.”

As she opened her mouth to reply, a huge bundle of fur and paws charged into Johnathan knocking him sideways into the slush filled gutter. Pinning him to the ground with his two front paws, Goliath growled low and deep in his throat.

Feeling safe arms wraps round her, Holly looked up into David’s concerned face.

“You ok?”

She shook her head as tears started to flood down her pale cheeks.

“Do I need to call the police?” he asked softly.

Holly nodded.

“No need, David,” stated a male voice firmly from behind them. “Someone already called it in.”

They both looked round to see Cooper, the local chief of police, standing on the sidewalk. Two of his officers were hauling an irate Johnathan to his feet. He was screaming obscenities about the dog having attacked him while he was innocently talking to his wife.

“Holly, are you married to this jerk?” asked David, looking confused.

“We’re separated. I filed for divorce two weeks ago,” she whispered through her tears.

“Excuse me, ma’am,” interrupted Cooper. “Did I hear you mention a restraint order?”

Holly nodded, “He’s not allowed with ten miles of me for twelve months. It’s an interim order til the divorce comes through.”

“That’s all I need for now. Thank you,” replied the chief. “Can you stop by the station later this afternoon, please, and I’ll take a statement there. More private than the corner of Main Street.”

“Thanks, Cooper,” said David, gratefully. “We’ll be by about three, Right now, I’m taking Holly home.”

“See you at three.”

With Goliath trotting along beside them, David took the shopping bags from Holly then, with a protective arm around her shoulders, steered her towards Secret Close. When they reached The Funky Bean, instead of going inside as she’d expected, he led her round the side of the building and up the fire escape.

“I’m renting the apartment above the coffee shop from my sister,” he explained.

“But I thought you were in Miracle to see your grandmother? I thought you were staying with her.”

“She’s in the hospital. Dementia. She’s been in a care facility, but she fell and broke her hip. She’s in the hospital for now.”

“Oh, I’m so sorry.”

“She’s on the mend. Well, physically anyway,” he said sadly as he unlocked the door. “Come on in. I think you need sit down and talk about what just happened back there.”

As Goliath bounded past them both, David led Holly into the loft style apartment. He sat her shopping bags down by the door.

“Why don’t you freshen up while I run downstairs to get some lunch for us from Rebecca?”

“Thanks.”

“Bathroom’s through the door on the right. Be right back.”

By the time David came back with their lunch in a brown paper sack and two lattes wobbling in a carboard tray, Holly was sitting on the living room rug with Goliath draped across her lap enjoying a belly rub. When he heard David come in, the dog got up to greet him, tail wagging.

“He’ll let  you do that all day,” David laughed. “Think you’ve made a friend for life there.”

“He’s my hero today,” said Holly with a smile as she scrambled to her feet. “As are you.”

While they ate at the small glass-topped dining table, Holly opened her heart to David about her marriage. She had met Johnathan at college, and they had dated for two years before getting engaged after they both graduated. When she had enjoyed some success after her first novel was published, they had bought an apartment in Boston then got married the following year.

“At first, everything was perfect,” she said quietly. “Then he got a promotion at work and began to mix in different social circles. He would go out several times a week alone. Refused to say where he was going. Wouldn’t say where he had been or who he had been with.  Things in the bedroom got rougher. More demanding…” her voice trailed off for a moment. “A writer friend of mine contacted me a few months later to say she’d been introduced to him as she did interviews as part of the research for her next novel. She was researching BDSM. Dominants. I did a bit of snooping and discovered he’d joined some BDSM private sex club and that was where he had been going.”

“Shit…”

“When I confronted him about it,” continued Holly, fresh tears filling her eyes. “He tied me up. Handcuffed me to our bed. Whipped me then raped me. I packed and left that night. Went to the police…and, well.. that was three months ago. When I was confident that he wasn’t stalking me and breaching the restraint order, I came back to Miracle.”

“And I take it your grandmother knows nothing about any of this?”

“Nothing. She knows we’re getting divorced, but she thinks it’s because I caught him having an affair. It needs to stay that way. The truth would break her heart.”

“Holly, this is a small town. After today, everyone is going to be talking about the flashy guy in the suit who ended up in the gutter outside then diner then got arrested in the middle of Main Street. You need to tell her before someone else does.”

“I guess you’re right,” sniffed Holly tearfully. “She’ll be devastated.”

“Yes, but she’ll also be proud of you for standing up to him and leaving such a toxic relationship. That took guts.”

“Thanks. I’m sorry you got dragged into this mess and on Christmas Eve too.”

“Don’t be,” he said, reaching across to brush a tear from her cheek with his thumb. “I’m just glad me and Goliath were there for you today.”

“Me too.”

“We’ll always be there for you,” he said softly. “If you want us to be that is.”

“I’d like that,” she replied, reaching out to take his hand. “I’d like that a lot.”

A soft thud at the window wakened Holly. With a glance at her phone, she discovered it was five thirty on Christmas morning. She’d stayed up late talking to her Gramma, telling her the truth amid an ocean of tears. When she had finally gone to bed, her sleep had been filled with nightmares of Johnathan.

Another thud brought her back to the present.

Wiping sleep from her eyes, Holly opened the drape. A fresh thick blanket of snow had fallen overnight, covering Miracle in another six or eight inches of snow. It was still dark outside but in the snowy glow she could just make out someone in the front yard. Cautiously, she opened the window to get a better view and looked down.

Goliath was bounding around in the fresh snow. He was bounding round a gigantic now “birthday cake”. In the glow from the snow and the streetlights she could just make out David as he moved around the cake. Giggling softly to herself, she closed the window, grabbed a thick sweater and her boots then tip toed from her room.

When she opened the front door, Goliath came running straight towards her, his tongue lolling out in a cute goofy way.  A fairytale scene was waiting for her outside. The giant snow birthday cake had been illuminated by a ring of tall pillar candles. In the snow on the driveway, David had written, “Happy Birthday, Holly.”

As she stepped out onto the porch, David came up the steps carrying two gifts. One was wrapped in birthday paper. The other was covered by Christmas gift wrap.

“Happy birthday,” he said, grinning as he handed her the first present. “And Happy Christmas.” He handed her the second gift.

“Thank you,” she replied looking stunned. “When? How? Why?”

“I got up at three. I knew I needed to be at my mom’s for breakfast at nine and that’s a two hour drive from here so I came over here early. We both did. I wanted you to have a birthday wish and to make a birthday wish you need a cake and candles to blow out. I can’t bake. Store was closed so I made you a snow cake with real candles.”

“I love it!” she gushed as she threw her arms around his neck. “It’s the perfect crazy birthday wish idea. No one has ever done anything like this for me. Not even my mom or my Gramma.”

“Well, blow out your candles and make your wish before the cake melts,” laughed David, taking her by the hand and leading her down the front steps.

Still giggling, Holly, with her PJs tucked into her boots, ran round the giant cake blowing out the candles. As she blew out the last one, she made her wish.

“cue film credits – Hallmark moment”

And they all lived happily ever after in a small town called Miracle.

Who knew you could get so emotionally attached to a Christmas tree…

Who knew you could get so emotionally attached to a Christmas tree….

I bought our/my first Christmas tree in 1993 when the Big Green Gummi Bear and I moved into our first flat. I spent a small fortune at the time on it, but it proved to be money well spent as the tree has come out of the box looking as fresh as ever every year until last year. (I can’t say the box aged as well.)

I swear that tree knew that last Christmas would be our last as a family of four. In my heart I knew it was our last Christmas as a family of four. When I brought the tree out of the box my emotions were already running high. Following my traditional routine, I fought the base into submission, started to assemble the tree which was in three sections then disaster struck. The plastic peg around the top section that should insert into the middle section crumbled into pieces leaving me with a metal spike instead that was too small for the hole.

I lost it. Floods of tears and a fair amount of sobbing that the tree couldn’t dare break now just when I needed it for our last Christmas together. (Ok I may have been a tad irrational, but life has been stressful around here for a long time and that was actually our third time of preparing for “last” Christmas.)

The duct tape duly came to the rescue and the top section was rammed into the hole. It held.

The vintage tree survived another Christmas, but I knew that it had been its last Christmas too. Unwilling to part with it, I put it back in the box and returned it to the loft.

Move on to this Christmas and we’re preparing for our first Christmas as a family of three. I’ll park the emotions associated with that for another tale. A few weeks ago, Boy Child and I were in the local garden centre, and they had their display of trees out. Taking a deep breath, I checked them out and listening to Boy Child’s pleas of “you need a tree that’s bigger than me” (He’s 6’1”) I chose a beautiful 7’ tree. Before common sense took over, I bought it. It was still only mid-November so way too early to put the tree up.

Last week the day came when I knew I had to put the decorations up or they may never go up. All the boxes and bags were duly hauled down from the loft including both the old and the new trees. Could I really part with my old faithful Christmas tree that held so many memories in its branches?

I knew I had to, but I realised I couldn’t part with all of it.

I opened the box and pulled it all out for one last time, running my hands over its branches then I painstakingly removed each of the small pinecones that were wired onto the branches and wound them round the branches of my new tree. Each pinecone that I secured onto its new home reminded me that I was intertwining Christmas past with Christmas present and that sat easier with my heart.

Christmas will feel different this year. How it works out remains to be seen but hopefully my new tree will enjoy its first of many Christmases to come as it stands twinkling in the corner of the room.